UGH! I am so behind in writing blogs and reading them! My most sincere apologies go out to those who continue to check my blog for new posts and are continually let down! It is amazing how one week of holiday will throw you off!
However, let not my absence make you think that my mind has been idle...far from it! I have been thinking about a lot of things lately and thought I would point out one observation that has been affecting me personally. That is (and everybody 18 and older can relate) growing up.
It is odd, as an 18 year old, to be working part time for the city with MEN who are old enough to be my father and yet treat me as a fellow employee. Up until now, men who worked full time always seemed so much more mature and "adult" like; people who I depend on but not relate too. Now I am making my way into the ranks of such men and soon little kids will be looking to me in the same way!!
I have, for most of my life, been one who resonates most deeply with Peter Pan. Growing up was never a reality that I looked forward too. I remember times as a little kid, having meltdowns about the over looming fact of having to grow up someday. It was a most frightful thought. However, as I continue into adulthood, I find that God truly is merciful. He allows for a time of adjustment as well as loving parents who help me out along the way. I think he knew that if the change was going to be abrupt I would die!
I am also finding that a proper understanding of one's identity is very important during this time of assimilation. However, I will save that topic for another post!
Perhaps my readers (assuming I still have some!) have more insight into the whole growing up process?
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I got nothin for ya - I'm still trying to figure out this "growing up" thing myself!
I must agree, though...I would die if the change were abrupt as well.
No insight...but I do have sympathy!
For the first time in my life, I think I understand why Wendy left Neverland. It seems that life is worth growing up for. (I never thought I'd hear myself say that!)
In these times of drastic change, I often feel that I am undergoing a change of identity even more than a change of environment; I am less alarmed by becoming a "grown up" than I am by the realization that I actually WANT to be one! Although it feels like that, recent discussions have caused me to think perhaps there are no "adult-like people", only kids that grow up.
All that to say, I think it's ok! Be yourself, Nick. I know you don't know what that means yet, but God will show you.
The future is a mysterious adventure, GM might call it the "misty splendour", where we have the opportunity to change so much without cost to our "selves". It's ok to put down the weird props we've picked up along the way. :)
A good friend once said...
"Just be happy and listen to KT Tunstall!"
It's strange, but it sorta works. ;-)
Emily~
Well, since it seems that we are both in the same boat...I'll be sure to pass on any wisdom as it comes my way! :~)
Camlost~
I have often thought the same thing about Wendy. It is not worth living the life of Peter Pan because Peter Pan never actually lives life. Wendy did!
I feel that I have finally reached a point where I am excited to being growing up and am ready to begin! However, at the same time, I feel the sadness of leaving behind the simplicity of childhood.
I wish KT Tunstall would write a song about this! It would probably be a lot better than anything I've said so far! :~)
"Suddenly I see this is what I want to be,
Suddenly I see why the h*** it means so much to me."
I think maybe she already did!
(She should know, I think she's like 32!)
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